I have no idea...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4yTIpcwBTTs
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LDctC82umBk&feature=PlayList&p=BC057E0F64CD2076&index=7
I am so confused.
I'm torn between truth and lies. I believe her but I believe him too.
She says this, He says that.
This is getting to confusing.
I need a break from this, Or we need to figure this stuff out quickly.
My mind is reeling, replaying thing's that have happened these past few weeks.
I can't sleep, And if I do I dream about these thing's.
I don't know what to feel anymore.
Sometimes I feel really happy and good.
But then in the blink of an eye I want to cry and I feel numb and broken.
I can't believe what I hear about him.
I want to be mad, but when I talk to him I can't seem to be mad.
Cause i'm lost in this love daze.
I like it...I wish I could be ignorant to all this.
But I know all of this and I cant seem to forget all of this.
To forgive but not forget, Right?
Heh, I'll be back later to write more, I'm just going to go paint or something.