These days...

Well aside from being shit, The past few day's have been worse and worse...
I am TRYING to keep it together, Keyword "Trying".
I can't sleep, Actually I really don't WANT to sleep, I don't see a need for it.
I can't help but feel sad, I try to be happy, I think happy thought's (How peter pan'ish of me eh?)
I feel like I am a zombie, just getting by through my work.
At work im all smiles and giggles, To make the customers happy, No one wants a mean/sad waitress...
I feel like my heart is....Beaten, And it aches
I am worrying about more people than just myself.
Trying to feel for everyone at once and I know I can't do it but I feel like I should do something...
I am tired....I am hurting...I am happy sometimes though
Random bursts of energy and happiness.
Then the feeling of being down and sorrowful and eh.