Long days

Thinking of you and talking to you at the end of the day helped me get through my hard work days,
Now that you are gone,...well, at the end of a long day i find myself alone and all I can count on is knowing that I will be alone.
I hate knowing that I gave this much of myself to you, And that you left me for her.
I don't hate either of you.
It just...confuses me...makes me think.
Was any of this....real?
You say you felt bad too, But do you feel as bad as me, I mean, You got HER to lean on for support and love, but me? no...I have me myself and I.
I hate that everyone now treats me like a wounded animal, Some poor creature that cant survive, But you know what, I can survive, I did before I loved, just barely but I did survive.
I would love to say that I dont need you, but I really do, but just because you can move on so quickly doesnt mean I can, Im still hurt, I wont go run off and find someone, Maybe you just wanted this all along so you could be with her, or just with someone else in general.
And her....I really dont know how I should feel about her, Maybe you were destined for each other, I mean she has loved you for awhile, It doesnt end well with two souls reaching for one heart. She is prettier, smarter, older, and lots of other things im not, I really see why you like her.



-Kitten