Surrender

I feel so mixed up inside, I want to breathe but I feel the breath will kill me, This feeling like some kind of snake coiled inside me In that part of my heart that's numb, His words are poison Slowly killing me, I want to forget but it wont go away, I want to breathe. But I cannot draw breath. Lost in a state of deep sadness and misery, Always looking back at the clock your words echo in my head "better, in time" So I wait, I have lost track of the day's...month's. How long has it been since this plague took over my soul. Swallowing me whole in the blur of motions twisting and winding to form a prison to conceal my feelings. Forever fighting back tear's and battling my demon's, Trying to reach a unattainable happy ending. I'm slowly losing this battle for myself.
I
Surrender...