Half-life.

How was I suppose to live without?
I didnt plan that, but now that I am living without, I realize that I can live without even if it is half living. I don't even love him anymore, I have no other feeling for this inhuman man other than disappointment and disguist.
Though I do miss love, the feeling of being needed, Loved...
Through all of this mess I tread water now, Not drowning, but not living comfortably, But at least im still alive.
It is sad when I wake up in the morning and the only thought that gets me through the day is sleeping and dreaming again that night.
But even in dreams, Im alone.