Alive

I'm alive, but I don't know why.
Could they be hurting as much as I?
I doubt it, They have each other to lean on for support and love.
Me?
I have people who pretend to be there for me but when I really need them they don't have the time of day for me.
The reasons I had for living have all but faded, now i'm living day to day in a fog.
Faking pretty smiles and working myself to death.
For what now though?
For me?
For him?
I don't know anymore...
But thats the thing right?
It's life, im not suppose to know what the next turn lead's me...right?
In this confusing maze of life and love, I find myself in need of a map.