Pathetic.

I feel pathetic
It's the weekend and i'm sitting here alone while all my other friends are out drinking and partying and going to movies and stuff, and i'm sitting here drinking with myself listening to music and photoshopping. I don't feel like going out, to tired from working, my heart still to delicate.
I don't need anyone else anymore though, I only need myself, I won't get broke if I just keep to myself.
Tired of being the "Just friend", I need more than just a friend...
But no, not anymore, It's just a weakness and distraction, I dont need this.
I will just be someone who everyone looks at and talks about behind their backs, and I won't care. I don't care. Not anymore.
I'll put myself together and guard my heart with my life.
I'll find some way of being happy.