Alone Perhaps?

Even though I'm not "Alone", I feel so.
I feel the doubt creeping into me, filling me with artificial fear.
But then I laugh at myself, as I have always told others I am not afraid of anything.
Then as the fear paralysis me I can only think of what I can do next, not that I will do it, But it is always nice to think, Should I tell my family I love them tomorrow? Should I ease the pain I selfishly and unconciously inflicted on my friends? Should I just stop questioning myself and let the dubiety take hold?
Stupid girl, the ambivalence is ripping you apart. Is it worth all this though?
Am I that selfish?
Probably.
And im scared of that.