Guilt.

Let the pain of guilt wrack my soul,
let me feel the pain that I have unconsciously inflicted on others.
I deserve it, I know I do.
It haunts me in the form of nightmares during my escape from reality,
I'm always running into guilt.
The unrelenting pain breaks my heart and shatters my soul,
Though I imagine what I do hurts others more than my guilt,
So I deserve it, I will gladly take the pain.
How masochistic.